If I said that I wrote this song for you, would you believe it? It may not be as well-written or as beautiful like other songs. I want you to know that a love song, can't be written if you're not in love. But for you, my dear, I wrote this song so easily.
You might have heard hundreds or thousands of love songs they might be meaningful but they are meant for anyone but when you listen to this song, a song that’s written only for you. If you understand the meaning, then our hearts will be together as one.
Let it be a song on the path we walk together that only has voices of you and me. Together as long as possible. Just like a line from a poem as long as you have love, you still have hope. Every time your love shines in my heart, i can see my destiny.
There are so many truths in love, and in the past I spent a lot of time searching for its meaning. But now I just know whenever you are near me, I know that if life is a melody, you are the lyrics that give its meaning and makes it beautiful.
There’s a path for us to walk together side by side and there are voices of you and me.
“Funny how I fell for you and the day you caught my eye and my life have never been the same since the day I saw your smile.” I can see no problem at all when I know that it’s me you’re looking at. It seems that it is the first time I see the world when I’m staring in your eyes.You’re sweet smile adds shine to your eyes making me feel relaxed. “You sweep me off my feet everyime you smile at me.”
But are you thinking the same way too?
It’s far from almost.
I’ll miss everything. I’ll never forget the night you said to me: “Ang ganda talaga ng mga mata at ng ngiti mo kanina.” I’ll miss those times when you make “tampururut” everyime I disagree with you. Sasabihin mo: “hindi ok lang! ok lang talaga” (pero aarte na parang hindi) Those “good morning” “good night” “kain ka na.” I’ll always remember that night when you said you like me. Guessing game pa nga un (******) at kunyari di ko magets na name ko yun. Sabi mo: “kilalang kilala mo siya sobra.” Sabi ko: “sabihin mo na kung sino like mo. Promise di ko sasabihin sakanya.” Then ang reply mo: “paano mo sasabihin sakanya eh.” I’ll miss how you react from my stupid jokes at yung mukha mo kapag nahihiya: Noong bumalik ka ng building para sa kiss, pag akyat mo ng fourth nagkahiyaan na, sabi ko: “bakit ka bumalik?” sabi mo: “wala” ako pa nagsabi na sa room 401 nalang ung kiss. I’ll never forget that night when I first told you “I miss you.” Tinanong kita kung miss mo ko reply mo “parang” tapos sabi ko “parang lang? ako kasi miss kita” tapos bigla mo binawi ung parang sabi mo pakipot ka lang pero miss mo talaga ako. I’ll also miss the way you hold my hand, your hugs and kisses. Sana tumigil ung oras noong magkatabi tayo sa kama at magkayakap, pakiramdam ko akin ka lang at iyo lang ako. Pero sabi mo nga walang makakahadlang sa pag ibig na tunay.
I’ll stop from dreaming and start to embrace reality. Don’t search and wait for love because great things happen when you least expect it. “Just patiently wait for your time no matter how long the delay. It is already written just keep the faith.”
It’s the second time I fall in love. I thought it’s impossible because my heart was only for my twilight. I didn’t know that in my own road I’ll take a right turn and not pursue my journey to my twilight but I guess it’s a wrong turn. I never thought I’ll fall and fail in love again. This is not part of the plan. “Kung kelan akala mo kuha mo na, dun pa mawawala.”
I met this guy on Facebook. Lagi ako nagla-like sa mga posts niya kaya gumaganti din siya. Until one night kinapalan ko mukha ko at ng-pm ako sakanya: “Like?” Hanggang sa nagkahingian ng number. Lagi kami magkatext nung summer. We talked about the things we will do on the start of the school year: “Lilibre niya ko sa Mcdo, kakain sa dapitan, kakantahan, ipagluluto.” Dumating ung time na minsan na lang kami nagkakatext, naging busy ata ako nun sa summer class.
Start of school year, lagi ko na siya nakikita sa campus. Kapag nakakasalubong ko siya smile lang. Gusto ko siya makilala pa kaya noong uminom kami pinasunod ko siya. That’s the first time na nagkausap kami sa personal. Yun din ung araw na nahawakan ko kamay niya at dahil mababait mga kaibigan ko na kiss ko na rin siya sa cheeks. After that sabi niya sakin lagi na daw kami tumambay para daw makilala pa niya ako. Lagi na kami nagkakatext at nagkikita. Dumating din ung araw na hinihintay ko, sa FB chat inamin niya na like niya ko at sino ba hindi matutuwa dun like ko din naman siya di ko lang nasabi. The next day sumama ulit siya uminom pero 15 min lang siya nagstay. Dahil mababait ulit friends ko kinuha nila i.d. niya para di makaalis. Sabi nila FK daw muna bago ibalik ung i.d. ginawa naman namin. Second kiss namin sa isang room sa building namin. After nun umuwi na siya, ako may class pa. Sa text nagsorry siya sakin, last kiss na daw un, magiging faithful na daw siya. Ako naman unti unti nabawasan ung smile ko. Ano pa ba magagawa ko may mahal ng iba.
Hindi ko alam kung para san ung mga ginagawa namin. Siguro binigyan ko lang ng meaning pero sakanya friendly treatment lang un. Nagkikita pa rin kami dahil sabi ko di mawawala ung friendship. Pero di mo maiiwasan madevelop.
Dumating ung time na gusto ko lagi siya nakikita. Iba ung feeling ko kapag di siya nagrereply. Dumating din ung time na ako na ung nagtetext sakanya na magkita kami. Fail. “Mahalaga lang siguro ako pero hindi mahal.”
Last friday nagtext siya tinatamad daw siya pumasok, makikitulog daw siya sa dorm. Pumunta siya dorm pero di naman siya nakatulog. Ung mga oras na magkatabi kami sa kama magkayakap, umaasa pa rin ako na mamahalin rin niya ko. Fail ulit. Kinulit ko pa kasi siya na ipakita sakin ung hrm na mahal niya sa FB. That night tinignan ko ung wall niya sa FB, nakita ko ung sweetness nila nung hrm kaya bagsak nanaman mundo ko.
“Tama na, ayoko na.” Yan lang sinasabi ko bago matulog. I want to start it over, I wanna start again, and I want a new beginning. Focus muna sa studies. This time I won’t search for love, I’ll let love find me. I’ll rest my heart first for beating for the wrong person. But then I’ll never forget that Twilight and Jokes became part of my life :)
"I wanna start it over. I wanna start again. I want a new a new beginning one without any end."
It's the end of Twilight's fairytale for almost 8 months. I'll miss those sparkling moments :( It's also the end of Joke's love story. Now, I want to start it over. A fresh and virgin start. I'll be turning 19 on Thursday (July 22) A new beginning will start tonight not tomorrow and not on my birthday but tonight :) FOCUS muna sa pagaaral :)) (oo na kapag ako nagsabi parang galing sa puwet) Set aside love and focus on studies for my future :) Masyado lang siguro ako nagmadali. Sabi ko kasi dapat sa 19th birthday ko may love life na :P haha. 6 days na lang birthday ko na at hindi na ko umaasa na mangyayari pa yun :D
